..a great friend
..a great mother
..a great sister
..a great follower of Christ
..an inspiration
..a leader
..a better child of God.
I want to be so lost in God's word, that a man will have to find Him to find me.
..to be someone kids can look up too
..number one, under God, in my spouse's life
..to be on someone's mind often
..to be the one that gets spoken to first
..to be crazy about someone that is crazy for me
..not to feel infatuated with, but loved by others
..to not be only infatuated.
I want my feelings to matter to those that matter to me
..to not be pushed aside
..to be everything in a woman that someone has ever prayed to God for
..to be special
..to be respectful and respected
..to be loved and love in return
..to know why I am loved
..to not choose friends first
I want to be able to be a great spouse
..to provide for my kids
..help those in need
..work more in a Church
..put others before me
I want to stop feeling second rate
..second pick
..to feel confident again
..to not care what some people think about me
..live life each day to the fullest
I want to provide for the person I love, in a way that is holy and pleasing to God. I want to be everything and more for someone, and them for me. To do all these things I want, and more for them. I am ready to grow up and live life the way I should.
It's amazing to see how many things we want in life. From ourselves, our friends, family, boyfriend/girlfriend. We make lists and hope to meet every one of those criteria, yet we don't. We shoot down possibilities to be happy because we think we know what we deserve. In some ways we do, other times we have no idea. Lists like these are almost impossible to fill. These are not criteria that a spouse or friend need to match up to alone. It is up to us, as the creators of the list, to work on things ourselves. We can't expect a significant other to help us alone on self-confidence. If we have in our mind that we are always second best to who or what ever, then it is made up in our minds no matter what someone else says. We have to take the steps hand in hand with them to make it better. Completely break the mold that has been set, and rebuild it. It is part of the path to growing up and becoming the child God wants you to be. It is a rough and scary path, but God places people in our lives to walk with us, to hold our hand and be there so we aren't so scared. But don't leave it up to them to do all the work. Get your hands dirty, up to your elbows in work. Learn to love who you are, because believe it or not, things do work out. We may not see it, or want it that certain way at first, but God knows best. You'll find the best friends, the best significant other, the best job, you just have to trust. Don't lower standards for anyone because all of those will happen and be the best because they like you for YOU. Always remember that, and trust in God.
Until next time...
