So sitting here at CIY. That's how it starts...lol..
The time here at CIY is fun, it's going great for the most part. I often run video or electronics of some sort, and tonight I did pictures for the Matt Bayless band. The students are pretty nice, cool, whatever you want to call them. The messages are important and great, OH! favorite speaker was here-total surprise for me (Jeff Walling). Yep, I was pretty stoked.
So sitting here bored, and Nicole is sick, gives me plenty of time to think, to ponder. I really miss some people right now. Even people I had just met, or people I had just met in person-but talked to before. It's odd for me, cause those people I didn't expect to miss (no offense). And other people I thought I'd miss-I don't, not at ALL. Again, no offense to those people. I found a strong connection with someone I didn't expect to last week, and it's the oddest feeling for me to miss them being around. lol.And I miss home, at least, I miss Mom. Dad kept calling me today cause he keeps thinking I am supposed to be home. Even though I have told him time and time again I am not coming home for a while.
On a slightly different note: talked with one of the FCC guys today. Welp, he is really cool but that's beside the point. Anyways, I told him I felt bad cause I was interested in this one guy and his bff was like "IMing" me? and I was joking, and felt like he may think I am interested in him..so I feel bad. To which FCC told me that I am a very flirty person, and it's not his fault if he is interested. aka-it's mine. Which he is right. Eh, I don't know. I just was thinking, what of all the people I have possibly lead on. I mean, someone called me manipulative last week, and I just laughed cause I don't really try anything. But I may be subconciously doing it? I don't know.
Anywho, on a COMPLETELY different note, lol: Missions! I have always wanted to travel, and the joy I get from doing so and ministering to kids in that way is so intense. I thought being here this week that CIY teams were what I wanted to do next summer. But as I thought about it, I really enjoy the camps, and even more, I want to go somewhere, like Africa or Cambodia and minister to those kids. There are so many people that need to hear about Jesus, and maybe I can combine my love of music and wanting to teach arts with the Gospel. That's what I think about a lot lately. A lot of people I've met lately are about missions, and tell me to pursue it. And my roommate even found a job like what I want (I don't think she wants me to be seperated from her hah ;]) But it's like, I feel God is dropping signs left and right for me, yet I am too scared and unsure if it's what I need to do. I am so fickle about my career decisions that I feel this may fade away? Yet it keeps coming back up, so I don't know. Thoughts? Ideas?
Mk, well I am tired of typing. Other tid bits of info..band here is pretty cool. I will be at RCC on Tuesday. Until then I am still here in SC. I have gained weight it feels, yet I can't find the motivation to work out. ugh. yep. and I am running out of money-FAST. ok. later
