I failed my test, again, for my online class. i won't be surprised if i fail the class. I enjoy the job I have, but it is eating up my gas. I don't know if I can make it work, because they can't give me more hours since I just started, and I like an hour away. I thought I knew what I was getting into this summer with classes, and the job, but things turned around and now I am stuck. My brother isn't doing too well..Mom called and said he is pretty sick and has a hospital check up tomorrow, but I'll be at work from 9-2. Then it will be an hour before I get home and I don't want to call Mom on the way cause I don't think I can handle another crying car ride back to town. I have had a headache all day for the past week, but I gave the only migraine medicine i had, away. I just feel like I am in a routine of trying to sleep and eat, then work, then class, repeat. I'm trying to find the happiness/sunshine in everyday life but it's just hard. i gave all i had, and made my life surround, and now its gone. so i'm just flat out not happy, and i don't know where its all going or what to do. patience is a virtue that i do not have; its also a sign of maturity..and i am not being patient, therefore not mature. its just hard. as the rolling stones say "You can't always get what you want." it's the truth, compromise is important and i haven't done that. so i lost what i wanted and had, even with all the mistakes/flaws/everything-it was what i wanted, though i had a hard time showing it, and now i am alone/lonely. i wouldn't change anything from it. i just want that back. sorry. i am digressing. um..i really don't have anything peppy to talk about.
i'm sorry for everything..
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