So it is May the third, at 12:35 AM...why am I writing that, you can read it up top ahaha.

Okay, so this week, starting Tuesdays is finals week for ECSU and MACU. It is bittersweet right now, for I am stoked to be done with school work, but sad in a way cause I feel I'll have so much free time now. Speaking of free time-in my last blog I think I mentioned not having a place to stay over the summer other than back home. Well folks, that has changed..sort of. I was offered the chance to stay at a friends house and sort of fill in for her at her job. Everything was going great, thought I had the job and then low and behold 2 days ago (a week before summer), I get an e-mail from the boss lady saying they aren't going to hire me. It was like a kick in the face because I feel I hadn't done anything. So now I am on the prowl for a job in town, and the only place that has responded back for hires is Ruby Tuesdays [not excited about that]. I hope I can find a job here soon though. I really want to stay around here and experience life in a different way. I feel/hope that if I can stay this summer, it will teach me a lot about myself and help me to mature. If I go home I'll just go back to my routine.

I have fallen out of touch with my two/three best friends..neither has really called me back when I've called them, which saddens me. Yet I haven't taken the time to call again this week. I will make time to do so though. Have I mentioned Mike is leaving to live in New Bern??? :( sad thought. I am so use to us being around each other basically 24/7 and now I'll be lucky to video chat/see him twice a month. sucks. I really like him. We fight and bicker, but things still always work out somehow. I guess we shall see how summer plays out. I cannot control every aspect of life, and need to remember that. God is seriously in control. mmkkk later gators.