grateful |ˈgrātfəl|-adjective, feeling or showing an appreciation of kindness;thankful

I know it is past Thanksgiving, and I meant to post a blog like this on Thanksgiving Day. However, I did not do so, and this actually pleases me. I feel now is a better time to post a blog as such, for I am more thankful now than I was then. So I want to just thank some people, even though they may not read this.

Mom-No matter how many times we argue and bicker with each other, she always shows some way that she cares. At times I feel I take advantage of her, and I am sure I do. She is always providing me ways out when I am in trouble, such as not having enough money for gas. She always takes care of things when I don't know what I am doing, such as speeding tickets (haha). And she is always willing to teach me over and over what I have already learned, such as paying bills and playing piano. At times she can loose her temper with me when I come home, but it never fails that she will cry her eyes out when I leave. She loves me more than I can imagine. She deals with so much and I am just thankful for her. She has always stood by me, supported me, and never left.

Dad-Although I get so angry and frustrated with Dad a lot, I can't help but to thank him. Through his "sickness" and everything, I have been through trials time and time again that have made me grow. Dealing with things pertaining to Dad has helped me grow to be who I am now. While at times I can be totally childish and immature, I can be mature and responsible. He has taught me compassion and love towards people even when I don't want to show it. It is easier to understand and relate to people now because I have been down those roads, or can imagine them. And to be honest, I can't imagine a life less hectic, no matter how bad I wanted it-I am thankful for all the craziness that teaches me life.

Taylor & Amanda- You two are my best friends. It's odd to think that meeting each other in showchoir, where you guys kind of hated me, is where our friendship would start. You guys have put up with my craziness, stupidity, lack of showing love, and mistakes and still accept me. From wrong dance moves, getting grounded for going somewhere else than we originally said, to ignoring you for a year of college. You knew that I loved you, and wasn't trying to push you away. So thanks for always trying though I may not seem like I do. I love you guys.

Danielle-You are a great room mate. flat out. I know I neglect you as such at times, often actually. But know I care. Thank you for always buying me food when I am starving, for washing dishes, or taking out trash when I don't, for buying me random gifts. You put up with almost as much as my mom, I mean, since we do live together haha. With my laziness, drama, gossip, etc. Thank you :)

Michael- (and yes I put that cause I wanted too :}) Welp, three years boyfraaan. Hm, I dont really even know where to start with you. With my immaturity, emotional-almost bi-polar states, to lazy, whiny and grumpy, ha and even my scary excited self, you've dealt with it all. Maybe not consecutively, but at some point in those three years you have. And now you do it allll the time :) I am so thankful for you. Even if we were not in the state we are now, I would still thank God for you all the time. You can make me laugh when I am at my worst, and make me feel more confident when I just want to ball up from nerves. You know just the right things to say or do and the right times. You are caring and loving, and of course are a gentleman. You open my door, pay for meals, you are respectful, and mature. This all being a new experience for me, and I love every minute of it. You tend to know what it is I want, even though I don't tell you, you just fit :) You are amazing and have so much talent. Thank you for never giving up on me, finally giving me a chance, and always supporting me in everything I do.

And of course none of the people, nor myself would be anywhere without God. But Him and I have already had our talk. God is truly amazing, and I thank Him most of all for all the great people in my life, and opportunities, even challenges, he provides me with.

There are plenty of other people I have thank you's for, however, it is time for thine slumber. I hope everyone has had a great Thanksgiving Day and break. Study hard for exams, and don't give up! Perseverance is important! Laterrrr :)

Thanksgiving break is approaching rapidly. in fact-for most, it starts tomorrow! however, I was told I have a few classes on Wednesday. bummer. The classes on weds. don't really bother me; it's the fact that I shall be alone in the dorm that night, BORED ha. Then I'll have to wake up real early on Thursday so I can please Mother and be home at a decent time. I wish there was some half-way point between here and home I could stay, t'would make the drive less tiresome.

So not much has really changed since the last blog, yet so many things have changed. ha, make sense? Let's see here: school is still not exciting and completely stressful for me. Luckily, this semester is almost over. However, the class I dislike the most will never end. I just don't get how a teacher can contradict and change their minds on things without thinking how it will directly affect the student. Also, how can a teacher kick a student out of a class?? Makes no sense, and I refuse to type out what happened here. Anyways, other than that class the others are normal. Praise team is over now...saddens me actually. It was my favorite class, and it made Mondays enjoyable. For an hour and half every Monday I finally got to do what I enjoy doing, without all the weight of it having to be perfect on my shoulders. It was bliss for the most part. Um..Church wise, I am continuing at Towne South right now..I still don't feel right there. I joined the Christmas choir under Ms. Bondurant. I figured if I joined in more, maybe I'd feel more like a part of the church, not to mention I miss her teaching.

I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW! haha. Mike and I are finally dating. :) It still hasn't quite hit me yet. I think cause it's been 3 years of liking him, that it just feels like we are still in that "talking" phase. But I do enjoy it. There isn't any stress or anything. It's weird right now though..to say Mike is my boyfriend (just not used to it at ALL lol) Also, it's weird to think that for the first time I'll have a boyfriend on a holiday haha. New experience. Yet I seem to date the most busiest guy alive, so I don't think it will be too different haha. :)

Sabrina (my first dog) is gone. She passed away, and it saddens me every time I see border collie. It's going to be weird to go home and her not be there. It almost makes me not want to go home. I miss her a lot.

Um, my camera is officially dead. It works, technically, but I can't push the button in to take pictures. Therefore, it is dead to me. And I am REALLY unhappy about it. I love taking pictures and being able to document things in that way, and I can't. Plus, the trees have all looked so pretty lately and I can't take snapshots :(

Anywho, um..yeah. I think that's all I can really update on right now. Laterr

As of late

So the past few days/weeks haven't been horrible, just not fantastic. School is starting to kick my butt. While kids here have exegetical papers to write, I have musical compositions, translating, and recitals to write and perform. Can't say I would rather write papers, but I'm sure I'd rather do anything other than what I am. ha. It's all just racking up so fast and I just am not prepared for it.

But it's ok, because that just means break is coming closer. While I can't wait to get away from school for a bit, and make money at work, I for sure don't feel like going back to Richmond. I mean, it's a nice place and things are cheaper for me at home (such as food) but I like being away and sort of on my own. I don't have to report to parental units about everything, I can do whatever. Of which all of this will change over break. Plus side is the money I'll hopefully be making. And the yummy thanksgiving foods in which I hope to partake. Thanksgiving break doesn't seem to be very long this year, so I doubt any friends will be coming over, seeing as I live hours away from people I hang out with now.

If I can just make it pass Tuesday this week, I'll be fantastic! Monday's are never my favorite day, but Tuesday is what will be the end of me. Not really, but I am stressing hardcore over it. See, Tuesdays and Thursdays we have what's called student recitals. It's a pass/fail class, and normally one would perform with what their applied lessons are on (mine being voice). However, this coming one is a Music Theory recital in which I have to perform the composition I wrote. I'm already not too fond of the piece to begin with, but I also didn't find a pianist to help me so I am playing it by myself. I don't play in front of people which is making me REAL nervous. I honestly have my fingers crossed that this nor'easter will stay till Tuesday at the latest and things will be cancelled, but I doubt that will happen.

DAVID CROWDER ON WEDNESDAY!! That shall be the highlight of my month I believe. Although it's all the way in Charlotte it will be fun.

I took too long of a nap tonight and now I can't sleep (notice I said tonight-already the problem).

Life is peachy outside of school work. Well, for the most part. I seem to care less about how confused I am with certain situations and am just trying to let things flow the way they should. I am not in control, God is, and I am finally leaving it to Him.

I think I may start another/new blog. Write out feelings based on stuff not so..miniscule and lame. Aka, not my life ha. Maybe more intellectual, thought-provoking topics (if I am even capable of that) haha.

Yup, welp, I think I am on to another movie. It's hot in my room. Laterrrr