letting off some steam

so my head is in killer pain right now from homework, that i can't seem to get a grasp of. i hate it. i don't even want to be in this degree right now, i haven't since i started the classes. why did i choose it? oh wait, i didn't. i wanted to perform, not teach. but that's what mom wanted me to do..teach. and speaking of mom, i am not allowed to talk to her during office hours according to her. but she forgets that her office hours are pretty much all day. i can't call because i cut into those times, yet even on days i DONT call, she gets behind, so what good is it? I mean, sorry my 2nd father was in the hospital and i was trying to get ahold of her cause i was upset. ughhhhh i am just so frustrated with everything right now. and next week is my birthday and i could care less. i was going to go home and now i don't even feel like it. it sucks butt. flat out. i am going outside..